Gratitude

Gratitude (cedar publish)

I find pain to talk about my happiness

Because I feel it hasn’t been obtained

Like I over appreciate things

When I do not care 

I don’t love 

Or even like

The small things that come my way

Gratitude for what I have

Rests at bay

But I have so much to be grateful for,

I just don’t let these emotions poor

So much to smile about,

But I never let people know

It is as if I am waiting 

To make a mistake

So that beauty is taken away,

And I feel life from within

But how can I?

Even though, gratitude feels like a forced smile sometimes

I understand to not be grateful,

Is like a crime

Not always easy

But better than undermining moments,

And underappreciating

The days 

And the way 

They hold us